It's been a long time..

First of all, I would like to apologize to people who followed me, as I haven't been active for..nearly more than half a year. My university had taken my time lots and last year I had to prepare several parts of my thesis. It really made me going crazy and I didn't have time to draw. I also would like to apologize for not replying to your messages here (I actually kinda forgot I've dA, Tumblr is more fun for me nowadays). Thank you for all the birthday wishes from last year, your comments on each of my arts, for giving me badges, favorites, and also watchers! (Gosh I was surprised someone still want to watch me after my long inactivity).Sorry I can't reply to all your comments now, there were a lot and I don't know if I can reply everything, I will reply all the notes you sent me tho! For those who followed my on Tumblr too would know I would disappear for weeks, and I'm usually more active in that place. Besides that, I was kinda not in RWBY mood anymore, the new season didn't like that appealing anymore, tho I still watched it.

And as you people who know and follow me cause of RWBY, there was a news with how our beloved and wonderful creator of RWBY, Monty Oum has died. It was so sudden and shocking, he was just recently got hospitalized and then this? I thought at first it was April Fool's day, but the reality is not..

I don’t know how to start, but Monty has really inspired me, to keep going and to not give up, especially in arts. Before I met Monty and RWBY, I drew just simple things and just for the heck of it. But after that, I started to do art more seriously, trying to use drawing tablet (I didn’t have one before), trying new art applications, developing my own style, drawing new things which was impossible for me that time, even now, and just kept making things, till I’m in this state. Maybe it’s not a fast learning, I’m still bad at it after all, but step by step, slowly, I’m getting to that place I want to be. 

And in RWBY, I met a lot of people, and I’m very happy that I can say there are some precious friends I found here. I don’t want to know what happened if I didn’t meet all my friends, and Monty. 

Maybe I’m not really in RWBY fandom anymore, but Monty seriously my inspiration.  His dedication.. no one can compare to him. I’m very much grieving here, and I’m just one of his fans. I don’t know how his family and friends bear with this, but we can get through this together. 

All in all, thank you for everything Monty, for being a talented and wonderful person. For your creation of RWBY and the characters we love so much. For everything you did that help us to become a better person. Just..thank you. We will never forget you.

I have been crying a lot yesterday, this just feel so unreal, when suddenly the person you look up to died. I even can't go to Tumblr now cause everytime I saw a post with Monty, tears just fell down. I can only hope he finally rest in peace now, farewell Monty, thank you for being my best role model.